For me the game of darts and the appeal and draw it has for me includes those things, but it is not those things.
I want to get better (we all do I suppose) and to as a manner of speaking put one foot in front of the other until i move out there in the distance to 'better'.
Sometimes the steps can go more slowly than I like and I must remember to remain both patient and diligent, but yes I do try to take each step I can toward 'better'.
Where is better? I think about five miles from 'actually good' and an infinite amount of space from Phil Taylor, if I am to believe everything I hear.
This is the trap I find with darts, the feeling that everything has to be qualified or that everyone is trying to manage my expectations to save me from some ultimate disapointment.
The truth is, in some way disapointment is almost what I am fighting to achieve, since you can only walk into the forest half way and then you are walking out of it. I will get as far as my dedicartion and ingrained and inate abilities (and limitations) will take me and I will get as good as I get and will be happy for the journey but most likely wishing I could be just that bit better yet stiill, and then time will take it's toll and i will start to find I can't quite do what I used to do, and maybe I will not even care? That is still a while off for me just yet but that is what is out there in the distance as I stand here, somewhere at the beginning.
Now you may wonder if I do think I might one day play at a Phil Taylor level? The answer to that, and I think why the whole question frustrates me in the first place is the answer is irrelevenat. I think a certain level of rationality would suggest that if Simon Whitlock isnt going to be as good as Phil Taylor my chances arent all that hot, and I don't think that really needs to be said. I just think saying "I'll never be" or "not actually" or "can't" create a drag albeit a psychological one on progress.
I am on the road of trying to be as good (or as bad) as David Sproull. That is the only game in town.
Now as far as me getting there, I'll do my best to not say I can be as good as Phil Taylor as long as you promise to not say I can't.
Well with this being a bit of a wordy post and me with a bit of steam yet I'll pose more of a question/observation than some sort of actual opinion. Some but not all of the people I play darts with sociallly work in any dedicated way towards getting better. Keep in mind, that as opinionated as i am (darts huberis supreme!) I am very new to all this and so I wonder if it ispossible that a day will come that my friends wont be able to beat me? is it possible? Am I a jerk for having some vision of it coming to pass? I wonder if this is something that holds a lot of people back? The fear of jumping from the pond to the lake to the ocean and so on...?
Of course I am not better than my friends i play with. Once upon a time (not that long long ago) i was nowhere as good. Now I am most days as good, and of course one step at a time I am getting better.
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Of course I may have a chance this coming Tuesday to see how i might stack up against some of the competition as there is the Rayburne Blake singles tournament! (and no,I have no idea who Rayburn Blake is..anyone?)
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David 'The Abominable Throw Man' Sproull